something about us (ode to autumn revisited)

you are my one, my only.

how could i go on without the sweet caresses of your embrace?

without the gentle comfort of your scent?

stepping out into your crisp, cool air

is an invigoration only akin to sex and coffee first thing in the morning.

curling up with a blanket and a pumpkin spice latté while watching you rain

is almost better than nuzzling my face between a warm pair of breasts.

but i know that you cannot always be mine.

you think i am too clingy, and you feel the need to put some distance between us.

soon you will leave, and give your friend winter

the go-ahead to fuck me in the ass while you're gone.

and i let him

because i know that enduring his cold disinterest

is the only way to get you back.

so while you're here,

i wanted to remind you how deeply i love you.

how, without you, my life would be stripped of its happiest moments.

without you, my favorite plaid jacket would stay hidden forever.

my favorite flavors would forever be a mystery.

and i would forget why i started running.

i know you hate when i get clingy,

so i won't tell you how much i'm going to cry when you leave.

but, just this once, won't you think about staying?